Omg my fucking long post just got deleted cause internet explorer hung on me FML.

I am SOOOOOO not gonna retype till i have the mood next time WTFFFFFFF.
Oh my poor heart. My poor aching heart.

Anws, recent updates in a nutshell:

1. Just finished RTC Xmas Decor last week. MAJOR HUGEE-ASS project which i will update some other time (which was also btw the long post i was actually typing) when i have the mood.

2. The other day i saw FDF interacting with that stupid girl and my blood curled like fuck.
And i thought i was loooooonnggg over him, and that just proved otherwise.
Tollay not healthy cause i was doing so well.
On to project DFDF. Destroy FDF. I must get away from him. I MUST.
THY SHANT BE GREEN NO MORE.

3. TEAM AUSSIE IS BACK!!!!!!! WOOHOOO!!!!!!!! HOW I MISSED MY BFF. T.T

4. Which reminds me, I miss Amy, Teri, Jeff and Herry alot. I missed hanging out with them, the 5 of us crapping and laughing all night long.
Being nostalgic just makes me sad. T.T

5. I’m officially leaving NUHS RTC on 1st Feb. I don’t know to be happy or sad.
Leaving RTC is a huge leap into PROJECT DFDF, which is good.
I don’t know what the future holds. I don’t know how are the new grp of people gonna be like. Can only hope for the best.
I’m sure gonna miss the people I’ve worked with thus far. T.T

6. Wah piangs. DAMN EMO la the prevous 3 points. wtf.

7. Guys will be Guys.
They NEVER CHANGE
They cheat, they lie, they sweet-talk, they break your hearts.
I hope this time it’s really over for you. 
You said you are just waiting for that one closure, I hope this is it.
I know you were trying to be strong, nonchalantly when you told me that, hiding your fears of the closure coming true within your laughters and smiles.
But it did come true, so accept it and let go pls?
You deserve better for sure, as cliche as it may sound.
So cheer up aiight?
It takes time, so i’ll give you that.
That’s all i can provide in any case, so i wish it’s enough.

8. I CANNOT WAIT FOR CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!!!

& i still like tt stupid man.
& i still kinda misses him.

so not right

i need a new life.

I’ve been dyring to type or blog smth these days but i don’t know what to say.

Things like Thailand, SM Concert, my stupid back with dozens of bites that looks like it is rotting soon, my newly cut stupid fringe tt made me looked like a korean daminant default.

my fears, my worries, my anxiety, my unrest, my uncertainties, my unstability, my responsibilities, my pressure and blah blah.
so many things i am worrying abt currently i feel like i can die any moment now wtf.

i hope it all turns out well soon.

maybe i will start posting on Vday. maybe.
but then again.
i’m irresponsible like tt wtf.

To Van, who is my sole reader and supporter so just fyi, i am working at KC DAT. Sorry for the late reply to your late response but as you know, i am utterly lazy and can’t be bothered to blog unless i have inspirations or smth. bah.

and also..

I'M BACK!

I’M BACK AT ESPLANADE!!
on a p-t basis to elp rene out.
anyone who needs a job just tell me pls. she needs help right now.

and i WANNA CLUB SO MUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! T.T
the other day i went with kel, sis and her gang of friends and it was so much fun i wanna dance again!!!
alcohol sucks though.
and random guy who crossed his fingers with me, pls don’t ever do it with other girls EVER.
you are not junsu hor pls.

i’ll let the pics do the talking!

i think i was abit high already. i was acting my sis and her fav. pose.

this is her fav. pose.

kel with ly and julie(judy?)

the girls, plyt, with michelle~~ guess which one is my sis!

was trying to act julie(judy?)'s sad want to cry face but apparently i failed miserably cause they all didn't know what i was doing wtf.

all of us tried to imitate dawn yang but why is my face so upfront and big wtf. OYT tollay neh imitate at all can.

me and ly imitating. i think quite alike leh. the pose la not face wtf.

 

sexy michelle and her cherry and luscious lips. mmm~

 

oyt's turn to be sexy with the cherry but she looks like a rudolp omg. fail la wtf.

 

i tried to stand far away so that my BIG face will be smaller than michelle's.. but apparently.. i looked like a.. random clubber..

 

oyt and kel. wah lao act like bff like tt. only met for the first time can

 

the guy's expression is damn classic and fugly omg it's damn gross and funny! HAHAHA WTF!

 

finally a pic with oyt. her nostrils are damn big! hahahah! and her face is retarded like WWWWHAAAT!!!

 

michelle, kel, oyt and me!

 

my office is mighty cold i am dying.
i need to buy winter attire just to survive everyday.

think joyce wld have died if she were to work here.

and i hope my company gets kelly in to work tgt.
so then i will have at least a familiar khaki to eat lunch with. and go home with! yes!

can’t wait to get familiarised with my work so that i won’t be so clueless and seems to be idling ard everyday.

15 more days to when i can finally see him again!!
i pray mighty hard it will be a happy night.

God, you work it out for me ok.
leaving it in your hands.

AND OMG i must have been crazy for the past few weeks for god knows why.
i was so hung up i annoy myself wtf.
finally i see the light today.
and it felt great.

And again, I MISSED the friggin bus.
This time, it zoomed right past me infront of my eyes.
oh the heartache and the speechless-ness.

i need to wake up on time man.
super duper shagged from an entire day of work.
7.30 to 11 day and night.

all for the blings and all for tt one night in thailand with him. T.T
i must be crazy.

flu still not getting better and i hate breathing with my mouth to slp.
it makes me wake up feeling dry and miserable. T.T 

now i am thinking if i shld go O bar this sat.
save the money, get some slp or fulfill my cravings for loud music (which i love) and some dancing?

I’m hungry.

P/s: i sincerely think wilson is scared to talk to me wtf.

there are alot of times i misjudged alot of things.
which may be cause i think too much, or the lack of it.

MisJudgement 1
i missed the company bus again YET AGAIN this morning wtf.
normally it comes ard 8.07am, so thinking i had alot of time at hand since i left home at 7.52am and i only take abt 7 mins to walk to the bus-stop, i happily walked to the coffeshop to da-bao chai bee hoon wtf.

by the time i reached the friggin bus stop it was 8.04am!
when i looked across the road in search of the regulars whom i hoped were still sitting there waiting for the bus to reassure myself tt i am not late, they were all gone. 

ALL THREE OF THEM.

and i was still damn happy cause “hey! i walked damn fast and I got 3 mins to spare and rest leh!” wtf. and “most prob they all take mc, leave and got people fetch them to work la i shld be alright” wtf.

turns out i was indeed late (i went to ask the recep auntie and she told me i was late normally the bus comes at 8am but not my fault leh wah lao he always come late of course i will think he come at that normal time what kns already got a routine already now i have to go even earlier just in case he see mood sometimes come early sometimes come ltr so annoying la.)  but i am too smart to cont waiting there like some idiot so i decided to take bus to work.

i still ended up late for work and i have to leave right on the dot at 5.30pm to rush down to esplanade wth eeee why i like tt one, come late leave early, whole take take urgent leave somemore why the company want to employ this kinda worker i think they are gonna fire me very soon wtf.

MisJudgement 2
After esply work last night, as usual i took my fav. 97 home and was pretty happy that the bus was rather empty with me and just another man on the upper deck.

Some stops ltr, a bunch of rather young malay teens decided to go up to the upper deck as well and proceeded to sit at the back and making alot of noise.
it wasn’t bothering me since i am listening to my music anws and that there weren’t alot of people.
but somehow smth went wrong with me i got abit annoyed that they are making so much noise cause i am like tt.
somehow i just am abit irritated with them and teenagers in general when they just talk, laugh and sing loudly on the bus disturbing people on the bus as if they own the friggin’ bus. (i manage to hear them sing when my song stopped for a while in case you wonder how come i can hear them)

so i was more than happy to alight at my bus-stop with a poker face as usual when i am alone and just went i was abt to tap my card, the young malay teen actually tapped me on my shoulder and handed me a bunch of keys.

“sorry miss, you forgot your keys.”

WTH!!!!!!!!!
momentarily stunned by the nice-ness and my guilt.

T.T

yes indeed he had a head of gold hair but he was a very cute, like really goodlooking young man and suddenly i cld his his bright future infront of him like that.
he was very polite and smiley so if he just you know, plan his future, study as per normal and not hang out with the wrong crowd, i think he can make it one day.

ok i think i am crazy. i got that from one simple gesture wth.
i must be emo-ing or smth last night wtf.

iyah don’t know la. just very touched by the simple gesture like tt and how i always judge people before i even get to know them.
i guess most of us do, stereotyping people, judging them by attires and behaviours.
what’s wrong with us!!! T.T

MisJudgement 3
Friends.
Enough said.

gonna be busy for the next few weeks to come.
FT job and pt at esply including weekends.

Children Society coming up and I haven’t tell rene abt it yet kns.
Bangkok trip on the 28th i can’t wait!
My beloved kei on the 22nd omg.

November is a busy month with no Public Holidays!! T.T

P/s: i am falling ill….. T.T cough and flu omg i cannot stop sneezing and the office is so cold wtf.

/edit
FUCK THE STUPID THEME LA WTF.
so fugly one by one why like tt.
I GIVE UP.

T.T

Late for work for the very first time today wtf.
had to take the train and then the bus. lucky the bus wasn’t crowded.

more esply work ltr omg i am tired like what.
why i wanna torture myself like tt wtf.

P/S : Someone help me change my stupid theme pls.
now i am stuck with this stupid theme that is provided byt WP itself.

i am tollay clueless abt WP.
wtf this is annoying.