looking through our damn rare and minimal conversations.
looking at your long ass email.

looking at your pictures.
looking at our good times spent tgt.

dreaming about you and your whereabouts.
i cried and i cried and i cried when i heard your voice in my dream.

“omg. is that you? yan jing?!”

maybe i was just hoping that you missed me as much i missed you.

writing you an email.
getting a closure and answer that i longed so much i had to dream for it.
wanting to go to your place to look for you.
wanting to call your family.
wanting to call him just to find you.

i really still can’t believe i already lost you.
JUST. LIKE. THAT.

i sound like i’m freshly outta love which is not the case.
but i did lose this one love from my life.

i cried and i cried and i cried going through all those memories.
tonight’s gonna be a heavy night.